Archive for October, 2016

One more day to NaNoWriMo!!! Am I scared, you ask? Why yes, yes I am. Terrified that I am going to sit in front of my keyboard and have absolutely  nothing to say. But I’ve won NaNo twice in a row now, and I am determined to make it a third! And if there is anyone more determined than me – it is my husband. Yup. He insists (as you will also see if you visit Once Upon a Story) that I am going to do it, and that I am going to actually keep up on my wordcount this year so I am not trying to cram 5,000 words a day in the last week of the month. He has grand plans for how to accomplish this too – apparently, he is going to play video games every evening after dinner until I finish my word count so that I can’t be distracted by him. And he knows how much I hate to feel ignored when he plays video games for an extended amount of time. So it will probably work. Oooh, and I came up with a great way to get ideas for short stories, since I’m kind of drawing a blank right now, but you’ll have to visit Once Upon a Story to see it, because I don’t feel like typing it all out again. 😛

Daniel and I did a photo shoot yesterday! A mutual friend (someone from college) has decided to go into photography (is there anyone left who hasn’t?) and asked us to model for her to help build her portfolio. In exchange we will get a few free pictures and have the option to purchase the rest at a flat fee. Even if we just stick with the few free pictures, I think it will be nice. We had fun shooting pictures, too – at least until a sudden storm sent us scurrying into the underground mall, cutting it short.

Oh, and you should be proud of me – I already ordered our Christmas cards for the year! I know. So ahead of schedule. Let’s hope I get them out on time now that I worked so hard to order them in time.

And in case anyone is still reading this and curious about my progress on Ethrill. . .I am unfortunately not going to make it to 100,000 words before tomorrow. I gave it a good go, though, and am at 88,000. My hope is to make it to at least 90,000 and then I will feel like I actually wrote a decent amount and will probably have to split it into two books anyway – so it counts as finishing, right? As nervous as I am to start the short story series for NaNo, I am that excited to start editing Picture of the Past- I know – who would have imagined excitement to EDIT your book? But I am so eager to have a finished book – and I know it will be way more work than I think it will be right now – but I think it will be worth it. Plus, I do like having an excuse to research historical fashion and events – and this not only gives me the opportunity, but further ingrains it into my memory because I’ll have to implement it into the book. The main thing I need to do, I know, is to integrate one or two other story lines into it so the book isn’t so completely focused on Elizabeth. I need more depth. I’m kind of nervous to figure out how to do that, but I’ll give it a good try.


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Since my last post (other than the awesome NaNoToons I just shared) was all down-in-the-dumps-self-pity, I figured I should give you guys an update sooner than I usually do.

After a semi-good nights sleep, I felt worlds better the following day. But, my husband being the darling person he is and generally able to tell what I need better than myself, insisted on bringing me to a wine/coffee bar that evening for a few hours, where he brought a book and left me alone with my wine, headphones and writing. It was so refreshing! And once I had sleep and writing and all that, I felt much better about life ahead.

I really do want to pursue a career – I’m not ready to give up on that yet, even if I am pursuing my writing more seriously. The problem is, I am not ready to go after it with a vengeance right NOW! And I have this coworker who is taking all these trainings, is upset she isn’t a manager yet even though she’s only been in the job for two years, and is pressuring me to get going on my own goals. And I don’t like being pressured. Unless the pressure is from God. I get that.

She is trying to get me to sign up for a mentorship program, and ask about classes I want to take and talk to people about getting into the intelligence community and in general assumes that because she is in a hurry to reach her goals, I am too. But – I’m not. I mean, I am in a sense. But not right now. We just won the contract, holidays are coming up, and I’m enjoying extra time to write. And time at home. I’m just not in the pursue-it type of mood. So, you know, being a people pleaser, I thought that she would think I was a failure if I didn’t express more interest, which has contributed to me being anxious. But I’ve decided I don’t really care and unless God tells me to do it, I’m not going to be gung-ho about my career goals until next year. Even if I am turning 30 and time is running out for me. But that’s neither here nor there.

So yeah. End result – I’ve realized again that the world is not ending and it’s okay to just relax sometimes.




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Things are squirrely in web world, by the way. I know when people navigate to NaNoToons.net they get errors. I have a support ticket in with WordPress about that. Sorry for all the technical grief. And thanks for answering my question about how you read the webcomic! It’s very helpful! In the meantime, I was […]

via 2016 – October 19th — Nanotoons

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First and foremost, for an ever-so-brief update about Ethrill, you can see Once Upon a Story. Yes, I am purposefully directing you there to try and increase foot (view?) traffic in my attempt to get serious about online presence. 😛

It’s been an interesting week – or two. I am back at work. I can’t remember if I mentioned that in my last post or not. This post will be a bit – musing. I guess. I’m in a low spirits, musing kind of mood. So don’t feel like you have to read through the whole thing. Who has time to read someone else’s low spirit musings, right? You probably go through enough on your own!

I actually had a really good weekend. We had one of Daniel’s friends and his wife over for dinner and games – which was actually a lot of fun. And then yesterday we dragged his cousin to church with us and then to a wine tasting, which was also delightful! But then I made the mistake of taking a nap. NEVER LET ME TAKE A NAP WHEN IT IS NEARING DUSK! I woke up quite grumpy, as is usual when I wake up and it isn’t bright daylight and nothing Daniel said or did could bring me out of it.

I was being all over emotional and whiny and upset over absolutely nothing and Daniel was so sweet and solicitous and offering anything he could think of to make me cheerful again. He brought me innumerable drinks, ordered me grilled cheese pizza (which was divine, despite my eating it while still pouting), offered to draw me a bath with salts and candles and wine (which I grumpily refused – shows you how far gone I was), made me smell essential oils, and in general, pleaded with me to tell him what was wrong so he could make it better.

But I couldn’t have told him even if I wanted to. There were so many things swirling around in my head, I couldn’t even grasp it myself. Do you ever get that way? Just down in the dumps for no reason and all reasons at once and every time you think you are going to pull up, something pulls you down even deeper?

To tell the truth, I think it started when, earlier in the day, a reference was made to my turning 30 in a couple months. I am trying so very hard to be okay with it, but I know I’m not, and the circular reasoning in my own soul is driving me crazy. So I think last night was a conglomeration of:

  • getting old;
  • feeling fat (while I ate more stuff to make me fat);
  • being tired of being around people;
  • completely depressed at all the negativity surrounding facebook and the election;
  • seeing no chance to breathe in the season ahead of me and feeling a desperate need to just be alone;
  • not being finished writing Ethrill yet;
  • wanting to just write but being too afraid to do so;
  • not wanting to go to work on Monday (hence – blog post while working!);
  • feeling like I didn’t accomplish any of my goals before I was 30 (you know, touring the world and publishing a book);
  • feeling like I should be more avidly pursuing a “career” – studying Russian, going to classes, trying to get a new job – and really just wanting to win the lottery (which would be hard since I don’t play it) and stay home and write and travel and not worry about a career;
  • feeling like I don’t have any friends to talk to because they are spread around the USA or don’t have time for me;
  • and then, just to top it off, knowing I am being a horrible person because I’m not responding to my husband’s anxious attempts to pull me out of my low spirits.

I feel like there were more thoughts spinning around in my head, but it was hard to tell because I was being so angsty, so this is the best I can do in retrospect. And now I’m depressed because I wasted a perfectly good Sunday evening on being crabby.

It’s a rough life.

So what do you do to pull yourself out of these ruts?


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I just shared a post from one of my favorite bloggers: BlondeWriteMore – if you are a fellow writer, you should check it out! I was just thinking yesterday about how to connect more with my main character in my book Picture of the Past, and I think this will be very helpful as I get ready to edit it.

Speaking of which, I just printed it out for the first time! You know, now that I have my printer and everything. 😛 It is so rough, with so many mistakes, and not even divided into paragraphs or chapters – but it is 127 lovely pages that are all mine.

I am still concentrating on my book Ethrill, as I would really like to finish it this year. But unless my character decides to hurry up and return home, I have a sneaking suspicion that my husband’s prediction is right – and it will either end up being a very long book or two books. . .

Well, I guess we’ll see. You can only rush your characters so much, and he seems determined to take this long journey with the elf (can you tell I was reading Lord of the Rings when I started writing this? Hey  – at least I am willing to admit it.)

But if you want to see my planned writing schedule for the fall, as well as my plan for NaNoWriMo, check Once Upon a Story, because I don’t feel like rewriting it all. 😛

So, remember my “Training a Husband” rant? And how immediately before the rant, I mentioned I was thinking about asking my friends to do the writing exercises with me? Well, one of my friends read that, and immediately went out and ordered the book! How awesome is that? My Gibson Girls are the best! It in the words of Mr. Bennet, “I defy even Sir William Lucas himself to produce a more valuable [friend(s)].”

Oh, more good news! We won our contract, so I’m not out of a job! Always a good feeling.

And now back to my work (wherein-I-may-ahem-be-interspersing-some-writing-ahem-please-don’t-tell).


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Great article from BlondeWriteMore- I think this will be very helpful for me in the future.  Especially with Picture of the Past – I love the story, but have a hard time connecting with my own main character. One of the things I am trying to fix while editing.

Photo Credit: Stocksnap Do you want to know how to really get to know your characters? The answer is simple. Pretend you are having coffee with your fictional character! I have been using this role play method for sometime and I think it has really improved my second draft. My reviewers in November might disagree… The […]

via How To Really Get To Know Your Characters! #MondayBlogs #AmWriting — BlondeWriteMore

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